Resurrection Power

This past week I heard the song Resurrection Power  by Chris Tomlin for the first time. It spoke RIGHT. TO. MY. HEART. It's no secret that Celebrate Recovery has been instrumental in my recovery. I have yet to really delve into the twelve steps but am going to begin doing so. As I do so I …

I AM Enough

The first time I heard the phrase, "I am enough." I had several thoughts... "No, I'm not." "I'll never be enough." "I'm sinful." All of my life I was told and made to feel like I wasn't good enough. I wanted to be enough. I longed to be good enough. As a Christian I know …

“Committed Suicide” vs “Died by Suicide”

It's been just over 11 weeks since suicide almost claimed my life. I used to use the term "commit suicide" but have since changed my viewpoint and am attempting to change the language around suicide. To say one has committed suicide makes it sound like they made a selfish choice. Suicide isn't a choice. Some …

When Sad Comes Back

I re-entered the real world last Sunday night when I returned to work. After so much time off being in and out of the hospital and then being in intensive outpatient therapy I had a little trepidation as I made my re-entry. It ended up going very well and I had a great week at …

So This is Happy

I fully intended to write more often while I was going to my intensive outpatient program. However, I found myself busy doing a lot of work and also living a lot of life and I didn't have as much time as I wanted to write. Granted, I probably could have written more than I did, …

Life is a Journey

My intention was to write a blog post every day that I have my outpatient therapy but that has not happened. Last week flew by and I was busy working on things and filling my head with a lot of information. I just never got around to writing about my week until now. On Monday …

And Then God Said, “Let There Be Light!”

I've been rather amazed at how happy and hopeful I have been since I was released from the hospital just 11 days ago. I had been through a lot of counseling and soul-searching in the past and it feels like light bulbs are being turned on all over the place in my brain. Things I …

Chronic Illness and Self-Care (or Lack Thereof)

Taking a shower. Brushing your teeth. These seem like simple everyday things to most people but to someone dealing with a chronic illness these are not simple everyday things. Rather they are things that, most days, feel like big chores and there is little to no motivation or energy to do them. Growing up I …

Reason Versus Result

When I first became a Christian one of the things I learned me was the acronym for joy. I was taught that in order to have joy you needed to put Jesus first, Others second, and Yourself last. I still think that to an extent that is true, but I took it to an extreme. …

One Word

I currently have six post ideas started as drafts which is something that has never happened to me before. I have so very much going on right now and there are so many thoughts and things bouncing around in my brain... it feels like a pinball machine up there! I decided to write about something I …